hardcorefraggle

yowza.

it's been months since i've used this thing. it's kind of sad - i never write in here, but i still read updates other people make.

and wtf happened to the background of my lj?! fuck my life.

nothing new to report, really. i'm on the last book of a series of unfortunate events and it makes me sad. i really don't want the books to end and i highly recommend them to anyone that's interested in reading. screw you, twilight. i hate how that franchise has stolen the spotlight away from SO many good books. ah, well. what can you do?

school is alright. i'm not all too happy 'cos i'm not in my desired program yet, but that will change by next september. i'm determined to get in and will see to it that it happens.

i should eat some breakfast, but i'm far too comfortable sitting on the couch.

what a predicament.

cheers.

"Oh God, where'd you go?"

i have no life.

i go to work, i go to school and i barely have time for anything else. yet, i'm somehow squeezing another day of work - on campus, mind you - in there. so far, i've been keeping up with things really well. so, really, i suppose that's all that matters.

i just watched jennifer's body. it was good, just not as good as i was expecting it to be. now i wait for whip it, where the wild things are and alice in wonderland. then, i believe, my list of "upcoming movies i have to see" will be all crossed off.

oh, also?

my sister is pregnant. i'm going to be a fucking aunt.

i cried out of joy when i got the message earlier today.

i'm so stoked!

cheers.

"You hit me once, I hit you back, you gave a kick, I gave a slap, you smashed a plate over my head, then I set fire to our bed."

as the days go by, i seem to be getting worse and worse at coming back here to update.

i've been living with my girlfriend since august 19th. almost a month and things have been pretty great so far - give or take a few tiffs here and there, but that was expected. the cat is doing swimmingly; i've never seen him so happy. he chirps and purrs constantly and rubs against everything - which, apparently, is a very loving gesture.

cut for dirty rubbing pussy jokes, here. ha.

i've started school and i absolutely adore it. i'm sad that, as a textile major, i've only got one class completely devoted to textiles - mind you, it's from 9am to 4 pm, but still. i have to take a history of western art class and i already loathe it. we haven't even had a single actual class yet and i already feel such strong distaste for it. but, really, art history? i'd rather burn out my eyes and sear my tongue with hot pokers.

i am currently at work. yes, at 1:14 in the morning because i am a midnighter at a location downtown. for the most part, i rather enjoy it. but we've had a fill in manager for the past few months since they canned the old manager and everyone is dropping like flies because of her. paola's last day was friday; dawn is giving her resignation letter on monday and only i know about it; danielle is looking for jobs on campus so she can quit here; a girl was fired a month ago (mind you, with reason); abdi is trying to transfer out; rebecca is only counting down the months until she can get her foot in the door with real estate. and i will be here. for, possibly, the next number of years - or until i find something better with such good hours while i'm in school. but, that's looking highly doubtful. point is, i've never seen a workplace change so drastically in a matter of months because of one person - with none of those changes being good, either.

the sound to my laptop just fucked up in the weirdest way. it wouldn't emit a single peep unless headphones were plugged in. so i frantically googled a solution and found a number of people recommending getting a paperclip or toothpick to wiggle around in the jack - you can imagine my great surprise when i did so and it actually worked. who would have thought?

i haven't much to say, really. i kind of just remembered i had a journal of my own and figured i should get around to updating it. but i'm tired, so i think i will take a bit of a nap. yes, at work.

brilliant, isn't it?

cheers.

"You never thought they'd come for you - but, they did. And now you have nothing left."

wow. i've pretty much forgotten about this place.

i haven't been online like this in a while. there's a lot happening all at once - all exciting, mind you. but still time consuming and, from time to time, stressful.

i'm moving, once again. this time, to a more permanent abode - hopefully. seeing how it is with my girlfriend, one can only assume as much. i'm really excited to live with her, although i have to leave one of my cat's with my mum. percy and morris have been fighting constantly (causing morris to pee on my couch - i am shortly moving onto my third couch come next month; being a student with just one set of income, this has not been easy for me to deal with and it's been going on for far too long) and i've been told by numerous vets on different occasions that splitting them up for a time may just benefit them. so that's what i've taken to doing - regardless of what some high-horse-without-reason people may think or say. depending on how things go, i will likely just re-introduce them later on and see how things go in steps. morris is a delicate cat, he can't be roughhoused as often as he is - he gets stressed. as strange as that may sound. even if i wasn't moving, i'd do this eventually. it's hard to put away your selfish thoughts of "oh, but he's my kitty and i love him and he's mine mine mine!" so you can realize what the right thing to do is. i'm going to give my money weekly for percy, too. and be there often since she said she could pick me up from school throughout the week. so, hooray!

i'm excited for school to start. i'm excited for not having time, for having a schedule to wake up to, to being at work all night doing my homework. haa-haaaaaa! i'm also hoping to get a part time job on campus. nothing too strenuous - it's probably even more easy going than my job is now, so one can imagine why it would appeal to me as much as it does. i'm stoked to get to work on my new portfolio, to watch it grow before me as i put time and effort into it once again. i have a good feeling this time around.

this within my family are a little topsy turvy - as they usually are. my sister and i get along great (better than we ever have, i dare even say) and my mother and i have been experiencing smooth sailing, as well. my father and my sister do not talk anymore. i haven't spoken to him, myself, since he left in early july. and my mother and my father? don't get me started.

but what can you do. sometimes, thing just don't work out. head up and keep moving forward.

that's all there really is to it.

cheers.

"And you're learning that just 'cos they call themselves friends doesn't mean they'll call."

Yesterday was my birthday.

I was sick in bed all day with the flu.

Which I'm still fighting off today.

Grunt.

Cheers.

"What else is there in this world?"

i lost my phone.

fuck my life.

cheers.

"What a fantastic day."

Ummm.

Kay.

So.

I bought the first season of How I Met Your Mother yesterday and I have three more episodes left.

I need a lot more to watch on these night shifts. Sigh.

Cheers.

"Suit up!"

i'm a loser 'cos i keep watching this and bawling.

stupid show having to end.

sigh.

cheers.

"Help, I have done it again."

Federico is so fucking annoying. Holy fuck. He's up there on my "annoying characters" list along with Connor from Angel.

Seriously, Vanessa? Leave the twerp. Grunt.

It is sad how my updates lately have been so sparse and only focus on the shows I'm watching.

Oh. And AMANDA FUCKING PALMER AND NEIL GAIMEN ARE A COUPLE.

My amazing news of the week.

Cheers.

"He built a 7 ft sculpture of his penis."

It's official:

David and Claire Fisher? My favourites.

And Keith is coming up second - second since they tie for first.

That is all.

Cheers.

"I don't know where else to go."

internet friday! yay!

in other news, i've been obsessing over six feet under. SO. GOOD. apparently, they're testing fire alarms in my building - i'm just sitting inside in my undies, when i'm pretty sure i should have evacuated the building at some point. eh.

morris may have a health problem of sorts. i have to call the vet at some point today. i'm putting my money on when i'm on my way to work.

also, my mum bought me a vacuum cleaner as an early birthday gift. how stoked am i? very. and i'm not even joking.

yep. my life sure is exciting.

in that non-exciting way.

cheers.

"Here I dreamt I was an architect."

So.

I finally moved to toronto this past sunday and am living with nade. Yay, nade!

I'm feeling a lot better - especially to how I felt living with m'mum. Things are looking up.

This summer will be amazing.

Sadly, though, I am stuck working in mississauga until may 10th. This means I have to bus there and back for a majority of my shifts. The trip back took me an hour last night - not bad at all. But the trip there means buses full of obnoxious tweens.

Like the bus I'm on now.

Grunt.

Cheers.

"Sometimes, I just want to open the doors while the bus is moving and just push one of them out. Then maybe, just maybe, one will slide under the wheels. Am I a bad person for thinking this?"

excited? i as sure as hell am.

in other news:

i'm moving on sunday. i didn't get into animation this year - but i will try again next year while i'm in textile design. i have a fever. i'm nervous about a million things - i'm excited about a million more.

life is good; life is fucking amazing.

being sick, though, is not.

cheers.

"I just want to lace my fingers in between the cracks in your ribs."

I'm so fucking tired.

I was up for two days straight because of my portfolio. It is finally done. The assessment was yesterday. I stayed at the school all night. My eyes hurt. After the assessment, I went to my girlfriend's and was pretty much taken care of. I took the battery out of my phone - if it vibrated one more time, I would have smashed it to pieces. After no sleep and a day and a half of pure work, I didn't want to deal with anyone.

I still don't. I'm tired. I'm exhausted. I wanted to use a sick day for work today, but my boss wouldn't let me. She said she could let me start at five.

I'm late, ha.

I'm so tired.

Cheers.

"I fall to the ground within hours of impact."

i've been ridiculously m.i.a for the past little while.

my apologies - life seems to have me by the scruff of m'neck.

after march 5th, all shall be swell again.

portfolio, portfolio, portfolio.

sigh.

cheers.

"Oh baby, this ache."

i bought a rubik's cube the other day.

it is frustratingly fun. i spent most of my work day yesterday trying to solve it. i nearly beat my manager with it out of frustration and anger - but mainly fun!

i finally finished snuff today. i started reading it in the summer, lost interest, put it down and picked it up again last night. chuck palahniuk? really? have you read your other books? this is what you come up with? grunt.

also, i never knew he was gay. but i guess, thinking back, it isn't all too surprising.

my shoulders hurt from shoveling the driveway.

and i've a portfolio to get to once again.

oh. i also keep watching ready or not. i became a creep and found busy on facebook. go me.

cheers.

"I just want to lace my fingers through your ribs - break them apart and let myself in."

i am sickly obsessed with let the right one in.

it needs to come out on dvd now so i can buy it and watch it all the time. i'm almost done the book and this slightly saddens me.

i really like the name eli.

cheers.

"And I've got you."

i just got home about ten minutes ago.

my fridge sounds like it's about to explode. no lie.

what the fuck, fridge. what the fuck?

cheers.

"And killing things is not so hard, it's hurting that's the harder part."

i've cried like a million fucking times today.

fuck.

cheers.

"Am I happy? I don't know - ask my family. They should know."

i had the best new year's eve and new year's day ever.

i got home just under thirty minutes ago. i wish i hadn't. i wish i had stayed where i was - with the foreign buzzing humming through the floors, a warm bed that i've become quite familiar with lately and the person that puts the biggest smile on my face with very little effort.

but i have work in four hours.

lame.

hope you all had a good year. here's to an even better one.

cheers.

"'It's where the little girl lives. With a doll that has no head.' 'Why would you say that?!'"