The personal memoirs of Philip P. Rankmuire.

Sat, 05 Jul 2008 07:05:14 GMT

i just finished angel.

i bawled.

that's all you need to know.

cheers.

"And I'm waiting for someone to shake me and say hey bitch, don't quit, you're almost dead - don't give up now, make friends instead."

Pacha et Les Chats (1/2)

Fri, 04 Jul 2008 06:06:14 GMT

I FINALLY FUCKING FOUND THE STUPID SHOW WITH THE BLOODY STUPID BIRD. I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO EXPLAIN THIS SHOW TO PEOPLE FOR YEARS AND THEY THOUGHT I WAS CRAZY. BUT I FINALLY FOUND IT! AND IT WAS CALLED KITTY-CATS IN ENGLISH.

BITCHES!

but, seriously, that fucking bird has been haunting my life. and i now remember his name was flap. damn you, flap.

damn you to hell.

cheers.

side note: i think it's also worth mentioning that i've been singing "christopher lydon" at work for the past month and everyone i work with now knows all the lyrics because of me - even though they've never heard the song themselves.

"I've forgotten which habits to hide and which habits to break.

Fri, 27 Jun 2008 05:53:14 GMT

it's nearly two in the morning and i'm making burritos.

'cause it's my birthday, bitches.

and it's what i want to do.

i really need to stop saying bitches. but i can't help it. bitches!

cheers.

"Catastrophic sounds not good."

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 12:20:10 GMT

i have been up since about 4:30 this morning.

i got my tattoo done yesterday - a birthday gift to myself - and had to sit through a 4 hour inking session. when it was done, i was exhausted. i came home, took a shower and just crashed. so, at least i had a full night's rest. i really like the place i got it done at, though. it's a new shop that opened up just up the street from me. they lowered the quote as a promo and gave me pop and cookies while i was there. i was entertained.

on monday, i got an ear infection towards the end of my shift at work. my ear had been hurting all day, but only started to really kick in about twenty minutes before i had to leave. when i got home, it just got worse. the day after, i called in sick to work because i couldn't even get out of bed. but i was out of sick days, so i pretty much lost a day's worth of pay. my manager called me yesterday and said that i can do a mid on monday to make back whatever hours i missed this past tuesday because she knows it's tough living on your own and all that. i thought it was sweet - especially since mondays are dead and we don't need more than two people working.

i'm finally on the final season of angel. that being said, i have decided that connor is the most useless/annoying character in the history of everything.

that is all.

cheers.

"Birds ate my face."

Mon, 23 Jun 2008 04:36:39 GMT

christian kane - i.e lindsey from angel - shares the same birthday as me.

that is lame.

GUNN AND FRED ARE THE WORST FUCKING PAIRING IN THE WORLD.

cheers.

"Give me the time and I'll move mountains."

Fri, 20 Jun 2008 18:12:49 GMT

apparently, my uncle is dying.

though, he's really my dad's uncle. regardless, i have no idea how i feel about this. at all.

wednesday, i am getting a tattoo. an early birthday gift to myself. i should call and book an appointment. school has been killing me primarily because i'm the biggest idiot in the world and left everything for last minute. good job, cat.

i'm a little giddy. it's pleasant.

i have to go to work. i really don't want to. one of these days, i'm just going to walk in naked. i would blame it on momentary brain lapse and go home.

brilliant.

the only upside to going to work today is that i finally fixed that sound problem i was having with the fourth season of angel. i can finally finish the bloody series. HURRAH!

cheers.

"Satin sheets are very romantic - what happens when you're not there?"

Mon, 16 Jun 2008 16:40:54 GMT

hey, so, i'm alive. really.

just have been...busy? i think. i can't even remember. i stay up late for a number of reasons then sleep through the rest of the day. or i work crazy early, come home and take a nap. or i'm out doing really dumb things with people whose names i don't remember the next day. though, i am currently staying in a bit to finish an assignment before heading off to school.

for some reason, i really wanted to listen to alanis morissette. don't judge; we've all fallen victim to it before.

last night, my roomie came home and stayed in my room with me until about 1 in the morning. we hadn't really seen each other all week and she really missed me. it was nice. we watched the virgin suicides and, anytime i watch that movie, i always feel so blasé.

oh well.

cheers.

"I'm a high school lover and you're my favorite flavor."

Thu, 12 Jun 2008 05:33:28 GMT

trapped is on.

why is this exciting? because courtney love is god.

that is all.

cheers.

"Getting your hair from under your bed
Breaking your fingers
Getting killed by a car
Before you can make him pay."

Wed, 11 Jun 2008 06:09:09 GMT

i finally have a fucking bed.

this is monumental. i spent all day putting it together and whatnot, cleaning all my stored sheets, making my room ready. and it's done.

you know what this means?

i can finally touch my no no in fucking peace. thank god.

i think i'm staying home tomorrow to do just that. and clean and catch up on homework, but primarily that.

cheers.

"It don't mean a thing if it ain't got no swing."

Sat, 07 Jun 2008 12:08:43 GMT

I FUCKING WISH I WAS STILL SLEEPING.

gab: i have the first episode of the sarah connor chronicles downloaded. obsess with me today? y/n? i'm going to have to watch it sometime in the late afternoon, though.

I WISH I WAS STILL FUCKING SLEEPING. JESUS.

cheers.

"We got a papercut that's got you feeling like maybe we're not meant to be."

Thu, 05 Jun 2008 01:25:03 GMT

my good friend sarah kam called me a few days ago. i haven't spoken to her in ages, so i was a little surprised to see her name run across my cellphone screen when i felt it vibrate.

apparently, she got us both tickets for mogwai on the 20th. i am excited.

i'm also seeing nine inch nails with nick in...august? some day in the summer.

i'm also going to the jazz festival. i'm pretty stoked.

edit: does it offend you, yeah? august 4th with vanessa.

summer's lookin' up. 'cept i hate the fucking heat. damn you, heat.

damn you.

cheers.

"The day you stop being hideous is the day I'll stop smoking, thank you very much."

Tue, 03 Jun 2008 04:04:33 GMT

biggest secret ever?

i adore jazz music. it hits me in all the right places.

it's all i listen to while at work. everyone that comes in stares at me like i'm crazy when they find out that i listen to it by choice. in my old apartment, i would light up a cigar, lay on my couch and listen to the jazz station for hours. when i get my bed, that will be happening quite often.

i can't wait.

cheers.

"And all the monkeys aren't in a zoo, every day you meet quite a few."

Sat, 31 May 2008 23:32:37 GMT

i think i'm in love with kate mckinnon.

here's a list of random things:

1. if i hear the beginning of peacock skeleton with crooked feathers by the blood brothers, i HAVE to listen to the rest of it. i can't live with myself if i skip to the next track.
2. i am starting my sex and the city obsession, once again.
3. i'm planning on giving away my room mate's cat because i'm tired of fucking taking care of it for her.
4. i hate summer.
5. i bought a dark night poster of the joker yesterday and, i'm pretty sure, once my bed gets here, waking up in the middle of the night and seeing that looming over me will probably make me crap my pants.
6. i am addicted to soap from lush. that and one of the girls that works there is ridiculously cute, so i'm always tempted to go back.
7. i slept with a girl that lives about 10 minutes away from me - up highway 10. the first night she ever brought me over to her place, the first thing i noticed was that, rather than curtains or blinds, she had garbage bags taped to her window to keep the light from getting in. she is not in a good place in her life. every time i bus home, i pass by her apartment and always catch myself glancing up to her floor to see if she's finally gotten curtains. a few days ago, i was overjoyed when i saw a light shining through her window and curtains muting it - only to realize a few seconds later that it was the floor below hers. i'm somewhat tempted to just send her curtains anonymously, just to see if she'd put them up.
8. i finally bought the proper stretcher for my ears.
9. i am working for 11 hours straight tomorrow and i think i just might die by the end of it. hopefully, i will start and finish everything that i have to do for school. hopefully. though, i have a feeling i will spend most of my day watching things on my laptop.
10. i'm not any better since my last entry, but i pretend i am.

cheers.

"Woodland creature, have a donut!"

Fri, 30 May 2008 04:00:10 GMT

i am ill.

and somewhat convinced i am crazy and dying.

cheers.

"Maybe I'll find out why this damned thing won't stop bleeding."

Thu, 29 May 2008 02:53:04 GMT

today i spent a significant amount of time going through old lockers with two friends, taking whatever was left in them by past students - that was of use, mind you. well, i took what was of use (art supplies?! hellz yeah!) and zaria just took everything. it was one up from dumpster diving.

i've decided that it is not possible for me to be on time for anything. i physically can't do it. even when i try to get somewhere on time, i am still late. i don't know how this is possible; i don't know how this works, but it always happens. i remember i once left a good 40 minutes before i should have for work and i still managed to be late. something out there - something big - is eating all my time. that is the only logical explanation i can think of.

i am considering disassociating myself from people for a little while.

it just feels like the right thing to do, for the time being.

cheers.

"Who let all this riff raff into the room?"

Wed, 28 May 2008 00:04:23 GMT

i have been in the lamest mood since yesterday.

yesterday was one of those days where just one person had to say one stupid thing and i would have gone batshit crazy on them. but no one did, so good for them. except, they cut the lock off of our locker at school - so i went batshit about that, wrote a pretty mean letter on our locker, only to come back to it later to find it cleaned and with a note sticking out of it. something about how they don't appreciate being cursed at. that's nice - i don't appreciate having my lock cut for no reason whatsofuckingever.

i also found out my old writer's craft teacher is leaving my high school. this made me ridiculously sad, but it was bound to happen.

i like unsalted cornnuts.

cheers.

"You wanted love, that's what you get."

Mon, 26 May 2008 19:12:34 GMT

I hate six hour classes.

What I hate more are six hour classes that don't make sense.

I'm a grump today. I want to go home and clean. Then ignore everyone, get into bed with a cup o' tea and read a good book.

Not many people know this, but I cannot wear belts. I am allergic to the belt metal and suffer from insane sever rashes if I wear 'em. As a person that cannot wear belts, I cannot begin to explain just how irritated I get when I see people wear belts and still have their pants falling off their asses. I turn into the hulk at the sight of this. I am going to start a group devoted to this, for it is something I feel strongly about. Or maybe I'll just rally up a group of people to kick users who wear belts incorrectly in the shins.

Spread the word, good people. Spread the word.

Cheers.

"I'll take my time and write a song that ends sadly."

Fri, 23 May 2008 05:11:00 GMT

today, i finished dirk:

i skimmed a bit off of his legs because they were crazy long and i like short people/objects/everything.

sorta bigger! yay nightmare before christmas and box of junk in the background!

in other news, fred is ridiculously adorable. i squee every time she's on angel. i literally squee. eating peanut butter under a table? *melts*

school was rad. had to buy a textbook, which wasn't rad, but wasn't bad either - it's a textbook on fairy tales. i can live with that. even though i pretty much own every fairy tale ever written. bah.

work was lame. i left at 12.

and that is that.

cheers.

"I joke about death because it's funny when you're frightened."

Thu, 22 May 2008 04:04:40 GMT

so.

skipped school again. woke up, was in pain, stayed in bed. finally got up, shuffled to my computer and just watched angel in my pjs for most of the day.

oh! and i made a robot.

he still needs arms. and his legs are a bit wonky, but, considering it's my first time using a felting needle and all that jazz, i think i did a pretty good job. all things considered. even named him dirk!

i also went grocery shopping. bought some more crumpets because, like i've stated in previous entries, they are god with nutella. simply god. mmm. delicious god.

my days are always filled with excitement. yep. that's what i keep telling myself.

cheers.

"Everything must go."

Wed, 21 May 2008 03:55:59 GMT

today i did not go to school.

i pulled a lie - a lie no one will tell anyone else at ALL - and went downtown instead. i worked all weekend. i wasn't able to enjoy the holiday at all, so i made today my holiday. i went downtown, bought my art supplies and BOUGHT A BIKE! i finally bought a bike!

after i couldn't hang out with my adventuring buddy anymore because they had to go to lame work, i biked all the way home. yeah. that's right. i biked from toronto to port credit. my everything hurts like mad.

and i'm still grinning.

it seems that i am on a dresden dolls binge, once again. it seems like i'm never off of this binge. i downloaded their live show from san francisco when i got home and i can't stop listening to it. it has the best version of astronaut i've heard yet. this pleases me. immensely.

i am so bloody fucking tired.

cheers.

"And I can save you, baby, but it isn't worth my time."

Mon, 19 May 2008 13:36:58 GMT

Dear heafer of a woman on the bus,

Next time you wake me up to move my bag so you can, not only take up that seat, but half of mine as well, I think I will cut you up into bacon and sell you on the market. I did not enjoy your constant leg twitching and your sweat marks making an imprint on the outside of my right thigh. Nor did I need your constant glancing over my shoulder at my ipod everytime I changed a song. Also, my leaning into you wasn't me hitting on you - it was me going for my phone. Stop grinning.

I hope you get hit by a blunt object,

--Cat

I'm starting to actually really like Angel. Which is lame. But crazy amounts of Julie Benz?! *swoon*

Cheers.

"Right between the clowns and the big talking hot dog."

Mon, 19 May 2008 00:22:02 GMT

*gasp!*

DARLA! DARLA, DARLA, DARLA! JULIE BENZ! <3

In other news, I wish I had a ghost named Dennis as my roomie.

Cheers.

"Stop that."

Sun, 18 May 2008 02:13:56 GMT

i think i prefer the live version i have of sorry bunch, as opposed to the cd version. i also think that they should have put have to drive on no, virginia.

i am very sleepy and need to shower, but i don't wanna.

that is all.

cheers.

"But I would lose a hundred fights - just as long as you were on my side."

Sat, 17 May 2008 04:43:35 GMT

brandstetter sent me a message.

i think i got a little too giddy at receiving it - and even more so when i was replying to it.

it pretty much just made up for every bad thing that's happened in the past while. it's strange what a little update on your life can do. it's funny how he messaged me right when i just found a nice niche in writing again; found an inspiration. hrm.

i don't ever want to work again. yet, in about 4 hours, i should be waking up to get to work yet again.

bah.

cheers.

"New York will still be there in the morning - come back to bed, my darling."

Fri, 16 May 2008 14:40:08 GMT

as i type this, no virginia is downloading.

i really just needed something to help me pass the time as it did. i wish i didn't work today. everyday that i have to work, i wish i didn't have to. it looks like such an "let's go for an adventure" sort of day.

wow. it finished downloading. i am excited.

i dig it. i dig it, i dig it, i dig it. i think i will actually buy it - even though i've heard all of these songs before and have the live versions of them.

i just had a very in depth conversation with my cat about how he's ridiculous and how, at times, it can be unacceptable - but i still find it entertaining. i'm sure he understood everything that was said since he's now chewing on a door stop.

i'm groggy. there is absolutely no point to this update. at all. but i want ice cream.

also: you. yes, you. you're crazy. that's right. crazy. c-r-a-z-y. if something upset me about you, or if something i wrote was about you, i'd make it very obvious that it was. such as this, for instance. so stop being crazy. crazy.

yesterday, at work, this woman came in with her toddler. the toddler hit her head against the counter and, instead of following up with loud shrieks and cries, she started to growl and gurgle. kind of like satan. it was pretty intense.

cheers.

"Oh darling, you're charming - don't find this alarming."